Because longing
Because hormones
Because thirty-six
going on thirty-seven
Because psychotherapy
Because not understanding
Because antidepressants
Because New Zealand
Because domesticity
Because being scared
of enjoying domesticity
Because Simone de Beauvoir
Because money
Because the best start 
Because not enough money
Because middle class
Because regret
Because my issues
Because potential regret
Because nieces and nephews
Because fear of death
Because a dog might do
Because antidepressants
Because déjà vu
Because the trees
Because the population
Because plastic
Because the ocean
Because everything
Because nothing
Because maybe
Because baby.